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I Survived Halloween Night

So I went into Halloween with a plan – light dinner and then I would be able to eat four pieces of my favorite candy.  Not the most well balanced nutritional meals, but hey, every once in a while you have to shake things up a bit, right?  So as we were out walking the neighborhood, which I’m sure burned oh, maybe,  a whopping 50 calories or so, I asked my kids periodically to please give me that particular candy until I got to the magic number of four. 

At one point, my husband (bless his heart!) asked – should I be taking these away from you?  But I told him,  that I was fine, that it was all part of the master plan.

So after we got home and the kids spread their respective candy hauls all over the table so we could go through it and make sure it looked safe as well as giving the opportunity to give away the stuff they didn’t want, I admittedly, when faced with a full table full of candy ate – one milk dud, one whopper, one bite each of a fun size milky way and a fun size nestle crunch.  I included the calories along with my four favs and though I went a little over in calories, I was quite pleased with myself.  Years ago, this night would have included eating candy after candy in reckless abandon, hardly even stopping to savor and taste what I was eating.

So a little later on, after the kids were in bed, as my husband and I were watching the World Series, I got hungry.  It’s interesting that even though I went a little bit over my allotted calories, I was still hungry.  Just goes to show how eating the good food keeps you satisfied longer.  I popped a piece of gum in my mouth and satisfied the hunger.

So yes, the kids’ candy is still in the house,  but there is always some amount of candy in the house from all their class parties and birthday parties they both go to and I’m able to deal.  Last night is just a bigger candy deal than just about any other night.  And this marks the beginning of the dreaded, for us compulsive overeaters, holiday season where there is always parties and food, food, food.  But whoa, I’m getting ahead of myself here, I need to slow down and take things one day at a time instead of already looking at the next few month and panicking.

Anyway, there is one more really good thing that came out of last night — keeping things under control led to  hitting 22 months of abstinence today.  No piece of candy would have been worth blowing that.


Less Than Two Weeks Until Halloween…

What used to be one of my favorite times of the year is coming up – Halloween.  While it is really fun to take your kids trick or treating , to see and enjoy the holiday through their eyes, it is also fun to hold their candy bags for them (which of course always get too heavy for them to carry halfway through your trek around the neighborhood) and be able to take and munch on your favorite treats. 

It’s so easy to justify that you are doing so much walking, surely you must be burning off the calories from eating X amount of candy bars, right?  Then you have all that candy sitting at home – the stuff your kids collected, plus the stuff that you gave out to trick-or-treaters.  Talk about a nightmare for a compulsive overeater!

If that wasn’t bad enough, in an attempt to make things even more fun and memorable for the kids this year, last weekend I decided to bake a pumpkin pie with them and to roast the pumpkin seeds we scooped out of the pumpkins we carved.  While it is a good thing the pie came out tasty, now it is sitting on the counter beckoning to me, along with the different flavored seeds we roasted.  

If I could just grab a few seeds or cut myself a small sliver of pie and be happy, all would be well with the world.  But of course that is not the case with me.  The sickness in me rears it’s ugly head and has me going back for more.  Though I count the calories as best I can, work them into my day and at the end of the day it all works out fine, it’s this crazy compulsive, addictive behavior of mine that I wish I didn’t have to deal with.  It would be so easy to just devour all the baked goods and subsequent candy that will be all over our house soon, but I have to stay in control.  I need to reach another monthly milestone of remaining binge-free, abstinent.  It’s just not worth it, to break all my hard work and start over again.   The delicious taste of the food for the 30 seconds it takes to scarf it down, isn’t worth all the digust and fullness I feel afterwards.  I don’t ever want to go there again, but it’s hard.  Every day is a challenge, halloween season or not.